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19 February 2014 @ 11:02 am
I'm not sure what I am  
I have always identified as a female and never really questioned it until now. I've never really been interested in makeup or dresses. I always feel wrong when I wear them. I think they're super cute and continue to buy them but when I put them on it feels wrong. I'm better and making guy friends than girl friends. I know that I am interested in males but occasionally I get a weird feeling. Like some days I really wish I had a penis. And I wouldn't mind having sex with a female. I've never told anyone about this but it's happening more and more. Like I really wish that I could have an operation and get a penis but also keep my vagina because I want the option of both lol. I'm not interested in sports but I've always been interested in building things and fixing cars. I've always thought I was a tomboy but now I'm wondering if maybe I'm genderfluid. Some days I absolutely love my body and other days I wish it looked less 'girly' I suppose. What does all of this mean?
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capybyracapybyra on February 19th, 2014 10:54 pm (UTC)
You are-you:>
It all means you are exploring yourself in dimensions that need nurturing by you and all in your life. You're dreaming of how you may need to be and finding out how far is part of the journey.

Enjoy the ride on your terms is my advice. Reasons why take time but?

Others can be anywhere between nurturing/cherishing us or just plain lacking a clue about our trueselves. It's their choices about how they feel, and our choices to cherish those who love us, protect ourselves from those who don't and generally be the better person.

The only person who can approve or disapprove of your choices in such feelings is you, on your own terms. And if it harms no one, including yourself- be as you need to be in any moment, limited only by material world factors.

I can well understand the overview- wanting to have BOTH bodies at will.

If it's a comforting self- imagery go on and own it to your comfort's limits. May all in your life cherish you as is on the terms you need:>
zaxis84 on February 27th, 2014 07:42 pm (UTC)
It's ok to not be sure.
I'm not sure what I am either. I guess I might be gender fluid, but I don't know for sure. Or maybe I do know for sure but I'm afraid to accept it. I wish I had it all figured out already, but I don't. At least we're not alone. :)
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